Thursday, May 13, 2010

Life Update

Hey there! Sorry I haven't posted in several weeks. I'll eventually get around to posting about the rest of the classes from second semester at MWSB. But for now, this will be about what has been going on in my life for the year so far, what God has taught me through it all, and what God is doing.

So where do I start? Hmm . . . Well, I will start with explaining the big thing that God taught me this past school year. He has taught me a lot about trust. I never realized how little I trust Him. I grew up not really needing to trust a whole lot in God; everything I needed was provided for me. I never had to worry about anything, not even my future. Even getting accepted into MWSB I didn't really worry about. I figured that I would get in. But over the course of the year, especially the second semester, I realized how little I trusted. Over the course of year, I figured that I would get Venture pretty easy. But when the time rolled around for the staff to announce who the Ventures were, I was not one of them. But I had a backup plan and that was becoming a cook there for next year. Well, as it turns out, God apparently doesn't want me at MDub in any way, shape or form. Yup, you guessed it, no cook. Oh well.

Now I am beginning to trust God more with regards to my future. I have formulated a new plan, since my previous ones didn't work out, but now I'm leaving the details up to God. For some things, I am waiting for His timing (and with the matter I currently have in mind, it's gonna be a while for that to happen. :P), and I've learned that if things don't work out just right, or at all, then I shouldn't be too worried about it. God has everything under control, and He is guiding me and placing me right where He wants me. No matter what the world says . . .

Another aspect of trust that I learned about myself is the fact that I don't trust others very much. I have never been hurt by anyone, but I still have difficulty opening up my heart to other people. A comment one of my classmates made during Spring Break really brought this to my attention. Since that time, I have made an effort to be more open with people (trustworthy people of course), but, in that process, I am also learning how much to share, and what to share.

So what am I doing right now? Well, I'm going to be going back to work soon (they were so nice as to hold my job for me), and hopefully, sometime in the fall (if I can stop procrastinating), starting beauty school. But we'll see exactly where God takes me. I have no idea what He has in mind, but I know this for certain . . . It's gonna be, in the words of John Erickson (the director at MWSB) "more fun than anyone deserves to have."